Dead Inside…I Am Not Dead Yet.
I have been dealing with cancer for 10 years. I am perfectly aware of my condition. In fact I have been putting together things for the last couple of weeks for some things I need to file, and have been down memory lane. The surgeries, the biopsies, the pain, the various drug combinations and the damage caused to my body. But during this time I have been doing a ton of things. Triathlon. Photography. Even saved a life as a member of the South Orangetown Ambulance Corps. Most of my cancer is now controlled in my on-going game of whack-a-mole. But a few tumors need the special attention due to their location. Obviously this will not cure my of my cancer. That ship sailed a long time ago. It has been palliative treatment for years. The proton therapy will check these tumors, prevent damage to the surrounding organs, will have less side effects (I have had effects from standard radiation, which is why I had my walking ability ...