Four Years Ago Today Part V - What Are You In For?

Four years ago today was my first visit to Memorial Sloan Kettering Hospital.  The pathology report was back.  It was cancer.  I went through a battery of tests.  And was scheduled for surgery.

What I was thinking, and my first first on this blog a year ago today:

“What are you in for?”

That phrase kept on rolling around in my head.  I was scared I was periodically mouthing the phrase so people would clearly see what I was thinking.  Or, worse, actually saying it out loud.

The room was crowded, but quiet.  There was just an occasional brief sound of a conversation.  Each person had the same look.  Neither race, gender nor religion made a difference.  I could see pretty much every type of person as I looked around.  We were all one and the same – in for the same thing and all waiting for the sentence.

But I kept to myself.   I never did ask anyone  “What are you in for?”  I already knew the answer.

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